So, let me take you back to 1978 when this card for Glen was created. We had gone on our first date that New Year's. We dated on and off and when we started dating seriously, I decided I need to go away to college. I was only eighteen when I met Glen and always had a tug a war with being free or in a relationship, especially being so young and in love. I decided to be in a relationship I needed to be the best person I could be. First, I went to my parents and they supported the decision, but they would only pay for half of the cost. I still had to pay them back, because in December I decided to quit Brookdale and they wanted me to pay the half they paid for that back. So, thanks to a good friend's support who made an appointment with the dean of admissions I was accepted as probation student, which meant I would attend college that summer. It was a tough conversation with Glen when I told him I decided to attend college. I was working hard at Evelyn's Seafood Restaurant and was saving my money. I had no excuse to not go through with my decision. I drove myself the three and half hours with every possession fitting in my Chevy Vega that I had also bought myself, since I had been working since the age of thirteen. I walked into my room and met roomate and her lovely family. I didn't realize really how brave I was until they all started asking where my parents were. Oh, they are in Florida, I replied. Oh, you are from Florida? No, I am from New Jersey, but they are living with my grandparents. So, I am now realizing the decision I made was not really normal, especially when we go to the auditorium and everyone's families are in attendance. I start classes with a vengence and love it. I missed Glen and that was probably the hardest part of going a distance to school. Reality set in pretty quick as I started getting parking tickets, as freshmen did not get parking permits. Going home was a struggle, because I didn't have money to put gas in my car. Sending letters even became an expense, not to mention my outrageous phone bills. I would go to the bookstore and look at the cards to buy when I had the money to send to Glen. So, I decided to make a card as I couldn't even come up with 5 dollars to buy a card. I already had crayons and a black marker. This card is a copy of Mountain Arts Cards. They were the best and always said exactly what I was feeling.
Only you can smile at me...and turn the world into a kaleidoscope of happy things...opening my eyes...
.....to stars and butterflies....
and make me want to dance on hilltops....
.....and all my yesterdays into shining tomorrows....
you have gathered up my dreams...and made them all come true......
Only you can hold me tightly.....and make me feel freer then I have ever felt.....
And only you.....can make me feel the presence of your absence....
When we are together....each dawn's a new beginning and every sunset a happy ending......
.....for me...there will always be.....ONLY YOU!
Quite a declaration for someone who had only been dating someone for seven months!
I could not say it any better after all of these years. My favorite line is "Only you can hold me tighter and make feel freer than I ever felt". We have had our ups and downs....struggles and celebrations....but after thirty three years of marriage I am so happy to share my life with YOU! Thank you for letting me be me. Another observation that made me laugh was thinking of our Anniversary celebration dinner at Revel three years ago and reading facebook comments and Ian saying something about my use of ........and Janeen and Laura's reaction which led us all to be looking at our phones and laughing. But, look on 7/28/78 I was all about the......too!
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